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Lay Len's avatar

I loved this. “To not run after external change but to embody it within yourself first”. I have been heartbroken by who I thought was The Love of my life. I now know he did not have the capacity to hold all of me. This is no one’s fault, just a quite unfortunate truth.

In my healing, I am trying to become the type of partner I seek. Someone who has the capacity to understand, to question their own beliefs, to desire growth and authenticity. Someone who is kind and unapologetically authentic, who can love fully without expectation.

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Mei's avatar

that's beautiful! it's also okay to have expectations. it's what makes us human. <3

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harini's avatar

Sometimes, you do not want to self love your way out - you only desire to be witnessed while you learn how to love yourself.

what a beautiful sentence. thank you for sharing your wonderful brain w us.

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MJ's avatar

this was so poignant - as a south asian born eldest daughter myself, i felt every word deep in my core. thank you for putting this into language.

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Mei's avatar

aw i’m so glad you felt seen. that means a lot to me as someone who has had the privilege of loving multiple eldest daughters. <3

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MJ Bel's avatar

I felt every word. I just wrote a piece called The Soulmate I Never Had. I, too, am tired of surrendering every day, of forcing myself to feel joy, and writing is my only outlet for healing.

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Sarah's avatar

🤍 so eloquently said and so close to home, thank you for this

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Ayanna Nicole's avatar

how beautiful 🥹 I feel so connected to every word at this time in my life. what a gift to have read this in the divine timing you speak so beautifully of ❤️

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ethan's avatar

this is soooo beautiful and warm ! love this sm 🫶

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April Leavenworth's avatar

You’ve written so much of my own heart here. Thank you for your words. May we all receive the love we dream of. ✨

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Mei's avatar

April, absolutely. ❤️

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julie huynh's avatar

your writing style is so lovely and so is the art for this piece!

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Mei's avatar

thank you so much Julie! 🫶🏽🌹 means a lot to me

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Jasmine Cheek's avatar

I loooooooved this !! Thank you for writing 🪽🪽

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Mei's avatar

thank you sweet jasmine ❤️ glad it was resonant~

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GHOST's avatar

love love love this. been facing these exact same feelings this past month. sometimes you are the only proof of the love you dream of indeed !!!

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Mei's avatar

I'm glad this was resonant. holding our shared dreams on life's altar and lighting a candle in our name <3

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Jay's avatar

Nearly brought me to tears, you spoke of so much of the pain I feel everyday. Not feeling loved as a child, the pain of the world not being better and not changing however hard I will for it. Thank you for these words!

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Mei's avatar

glad you found them when you needed them :) there is so much hope in knowing that we’re not the only ones aching, there are others like us too. thank you for sharing your aches with me.

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tinitots's avatar

hits too close to home.

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dante's avatar

i hope you know how amazing you are to have written this❤️❤️

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Mei's avatar

this is so sweet. thank you Rachel 🫶🏽🌹

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Megh Cheema's avatar

absolutely love this

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emily n's avatar

This is so beautiful, thank you for your reflections and writing 💘

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